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Sunday, October 23, 2005
Stretchings
If you invite, Him the Lord will stretch you beyond your
normal boundaries. It may be as simple as filling your day
to overflowing (as He has for me today) or He may expand
your horizons as He did with three wonderful men in our
church who followed His lead to partake in ministering up
close and personal to hurricane evacuees.
Pastor
Rob's
sermon this morning was something God knew I needed
to hear and invite Him to act on in my life... well, most often that
is true. Hearing from a Spirit led Pastor, teacher or anyone is a
lot like praying, fellowshipping, listening to Gospel music OR
reading the Scriptures... Wait... hear me out! They are much the
same because God will speak to you through any of them, as well as
your circumstances, if you INVITE Him to and LISTEN!... Oops,
stealing part of the sermon here. LOL
Next, I am blessed to hear (Tom Lane)
Deacon
Speakin'
in Sunday School. Always prepared, always led by the
Spirit, always inspiring. Deacon Jim Fugate, who reflects so
perfectly the pure love of Jesus, warms our souls and leads us in
musical worship and prayer. No longer am I in the room... I close my
eyes and am standing at the open and empty tomb, or transported to
bow at the feet of my Lord in glory. I sing off key and too loud,
but Jesus loves to hear it... the others seem to tolerate it without
comment.
Then we start. I glance around the room at people I
have grown to love far more than I am able to let them know without
getting syrupy. Eva
sits across from me next to her most cool hubby,
James, a hip young man far more mature than he, himself realizes. I
am saddened they will soon move, but thrilled they are willing to go
wherever God leads. My sweet friend Liz is at one end of the room. I
sit in the middle with my honey, Richard who would rather sit in the
back but humors me (in almost everything, I am very loved). At each
of the tables there are people I love. I hope God leaves me here a
good long while.
Now, for the speaker... Richard?? OK. Neither of us
was expecting this, but I was pleased. My husband is an
award-winning administrator, a fiscal whiz who saved several school
districts' bacon and turned them around. He loves to work quietly
behind the scenes. He's a guy you can call on and count on... not a
fellow who likes to speak publicly, especially about himself. He got
a little "stretched." I liked it. He was glad when it was over.
The lesson in Roman's 12, had a personal call to me
as well. Again, I was spiritually stretched. The day was a busy one
and I was barely ready to go to evening church where we heard from
our three faithful relief worker missionaries, Pastor R.B., Pastor
Cliff and Pete. These men have been stretched and grew in the
process, inspiring us all in that issue of growing beyond
ourselves .It was a great evening!
I have done nothing in my house today, I cooked one
easy meal... the rest of the day and night, I was working on
Painting the Passion. More of that after an hour or so of slumber.
Monday, October 24, 2005
Passions
I have many passions.. since childhood, I have "gone
overboard" for things I felt important. Thankfully, most of
my passions have been positive. The Lord has long had me in
His protective gaze. Of course, He is the number one passion
of my life. I love Him radically, and if someone thinks I
make a fool of myself, I really do not care... as long as I
never do anything to dishonor Him. My whole life revolves
around my Lord and I consciously seek to make Him the core
of every thought or activity... I am totally unable to do
this, of course, without His moment by moment enablement. If
you don't know Him or find your relationship with Him
lukewarm,
e-mail me.
As a teen I wanted to be a great musician, singer,
composer. I have NO real talent in music except a discerning ear. I
played the trombone, then baritone, then all the brass, then went
into woodwinds... clarinet, tenor sax. Whew! I practiced constantly!
My family sent me out of the house, they needed some relief. That
much practice will lead to some polish, even for one with zero
talent. So I played professionally for a time, both as a teen and
as an adult.
I also sang... long and loud. No amount of practice
will ever make my voice pleasing to any ear but God's alone. He
loves me so much, He turns my singing into a thing of beauty...
sadly, no one but He can hear it that way.
Another of my youthful passions was swimming. I
planned to swim the English Channel and trained with a vengeance. We
lived in Rodeo, CA, my last two years of High School (I graduated
from John Swett H.S. in Crockett, CA) so I swam in the bay. I snuck
out of my window at night... not to meet boys, but to smear my body
with thick grease, slip into the chilly bay waters swim for miles...
alone. What an idiot! I would freak out if one of my children had
been that nuts. I had a coach, who worked with me in the daytime. My
longest day swim was 17 miles, but some of my night swims were
longer.
I never swam the English channel... no sponsor.
Bummer. I was ready! My parents were glad. They thought I was a
genius musician and would be the next Einstein. I got married
instead... college came later, seven children and continued through
the rest of them.
But back to passions. I learned a passion for
people from my dad. He loved everyone... some more deeply than
others. I never heard him voice dislike for ANY person. I can't say
that about many people... no one can. I can't even say it about
me... but God and I are working on it. I love people. I love to
watch them. I'll talk to almost anyone. I enjoy smiling at people
and watching their reaction. Here are some interesting facts about
Smiles:
1. Over 92% of the Americans gain first impressions based on one's
smile
2. Smiling releases endorphins and makes us feel better
3. Even faking a smile can lead to feeling happier
4. A newborn shows a preference for a smiling face over a
non-smiling face
5. A smiling person is judged to be more pleasant, attractive,
sincere, sociable,
and competent than a non-smiling person
As my regular blog readers know, I am developing a
passion for cooking. I have gotten some very good cookbooks, I watch
Food Network when I watch TV... I don't see much TV. And I am trying
all sorts of recipes... I LOVE it... even when I fail. If something
doesn't work out, I have learned a new lesson and made the dogs very
happy.
As a child, I used to draw and sketch, but since I
was "training" to be a great musician, I neglected the artistic
gifts the Lord placed in me... until years later when I was teaching
at a rural eastern Colorado school. The kids wanted Art and the
school needed to offer a foreign language. My husband was the Supt.
of Schools and they really didn't have the budget for another
person... so I became the new Art and French teacher along with my
duties in Physics, Biology, Health, etc.
Over the summer, I prepared myself as best I could,
but felt definitely unqualified. We have a daughter with a degree in
art and the talent to go with it... Her work blows folks away! She
encouraged me, but I suspect she had secret concerns for my ability
to teach something I had not practiced. Laboriously, I began to work
my way through the art lessons I was to teach. The history part was
easy to learn, but I needed skill and technique.
I practiced art as I had done my swimming...
doggedly... not out of love or passion, but because it needed doing
to meet a goal. But as I worked, there was a stirring up of the long
dormant talent the Lord had given me (and I rejected because I
wanted music instead). After two years of teaching and working to
improve my skills, I gradually realized I had become passionate
about it. I loved doing it! But art is an expensive hobby, and I had
no thought anyone would every pay for my work.
Part of my teaching load included computer
consulting for school districts and working as the school's computer
teacher and webmaster. I was learning to code and learning to create
digital art for web sites... Soon, I gave up working on papers and
canvas and was working exclusively on digital art. As I had done to
train myself on hard media (as opposed to digital) I tried to learn
from my favorite artists by copying their art creating a digital
version of their techniques. I painted parts of Kinkade's works,
some of Bob Ross, and especially the old masters. It was a challenge
to reproduce the look digitally.
Digital painting is like painting with light! I
loved it, but felt I had lost my touch after the accident. I am very
distractible now. The first few pieces I did looked dead to me...
some folks say they are OK, but I know they aren't the same. I have
prayed for the light to return... I always pray the whole time I
paint, or do anything else, I guess. One day when I was struggling
with a "dead" looking picture of Jesus (my favorite subject), and
asking Him to bring back the passion and light in my art...
I am now painting The Passion of The Christ... No,
I am not doing it! He is doing it through my hands. His light is
flowing through my mouse... Thrilling!!! Horrible!!! I have
always painted pretty sedate pictures of Jesus. These are disturbing
in that, like the film, they reach into the pit of hell to show what
evil did to our Savior... He is the Victor who set us free, but
could not have been so without volunteering to go through this
horror.
Above is the painting I finished last night
entitled: Sin For Us Thanks to
the ease of changing things digitally, I was easily able to covert
it into a new variation. Sin For Us Blue
NOTE, I signed the work on Jesus' shoulder because he
bears me up on his shoulders... a bit of OT symbolism I cherish.
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
A Short Note
Some of you are probably still reading yesterday's blog...
Looong winded, wasn't it? And pretty heavy at the end. Got
some comments about the title for the picture... so just to
clarify: As Jesus hung on the cross, He bore all our sin for
us... every vile and evil thing man would ever do. The
picture is of the agony such depravity brought Him as He was
then separated for the first time from the Father and cried
out, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" Hence the
name... and yes, it is "disturbing."
I had a wonderful surprise visit
this afternoon from one of the therapists who worked with me. Holly
Anne is quite dear to me, and I was thrilled to see her... A gentle,
quiet spirit, that lady... and she taught me about "healing colors."
Lavener, aqua, varied hues to compliment them... She's a walking,
talking Love Note, and I learn
something every time she opens her mouth.
There isn't much else for today's
blog. I was able to set up a private church e-mail list at Yahoo. If
you are a member or patron of FBC and have not received an
invitation to join the list, please let me know.
A group from FBC is going to Apple
Hill tomorrow. I don't know what or where it is, but I am going,
too. I like hanging out with my church family.
I'm tired, but must share another
sweet surprise that just happened a minute ago. As I was putting
some cash in my wallet for tomorrow's excursion, I found a baggie of
over-stuffed Oreo cookies... about 6 of them. I don't recall where
they came from, I never buy them, but they sure taste good as a
bedtime snack from who knows where. A mystery
Love Note!
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Life is Full
I put up the rest of the old comments I had received and
some interesting new comments on my blog and on my art.
Check them out.
Sorry, no blog yesterday. I went to Apple Hill with
a group of folks from church. Apple Hill is a touristy orchard area
above Placerville, CA... kind of quaint. It was chilly all day and
rained lightly at times. I was cold much of the time but enjoyed the
fellowship.
As soon as I got home, I ran to do my weekly
shopping which I had not done last week end. Our cupboards were
looking more and more like Mother Hubbard's... bare. Richard and I
arrived home about the same time and rushed the groceries into the
house, only putting away the cold foods before hurrying off to
Wednesday night Bible study. We have missed so many times. Richard
usually doesn't get off work until after the meeting starts.
Thursday mornings always bless me and recharge my
spiritual batteries as I meet with the
Women of Grace.
It's hard to conceive of a brain injured person facilitating a small
group because that "job" requires one to keep track of what's going
on, who said what, etc. and keep the group focused on the lesson.
But God delights in using the weak, and He enables those He calls.
Although I had led many small groups in the past, I was not
expecting He would call me again because of my memory and attention
deficits. I am so very glad He did!
Another bright spot for me today was an appointment
with my neuro-psychologist, Dr. McCormick. He is a gentle and wise
man about whom I've written before. He gave me some great advice
just before I began working with
Women of
Grace. I was nervous; he said, "Just
go and be." A sage mantra with so many applications.
"...If God be for us, who can be against us?"
Romans 8:31 What is there to fear from man or circumstance? So,
just go and be.
We are facing some sticky issues with Social
Security and workmen's comp. FBC is getting e-mails offering
millions of dollars; I am getting snail mail from Social Security
saying I owe thousands of dollars. Hmmm, I wonder if we can somehow
connect the SSA folks with the scammers for a net zero.
Meanwhile Workmen's Comp wants me to sign release
papers I don't understand. The letter tells me to call if I have
questions, but when I call, I can only leave a message. After 17
leaving messages so far this week, I have yet to hear from them. Now
for the dicey part, I have lost the forms they sent! ...which of
course have a deadline.
If I were not good friends with the King of the
Universe, I would be getting really worried right about now. But
mostly, I'm just tired, so will sign off and get some sleep.
Friday, October 28, 2005
(Written Saturday AM)
Taking Stock
I visited a public school today. I liked what I saw and was
impressed with the educators serving there at Fairsite
Elementary. The school library has ordered new high interest
materials to inspire young readers and increase vocabulary
and comprehension levels, but the high point of my visit was
participating in a team approach to education. This is an
ideal situation wherein administration, teachers, parents
and the child sit down to assess the student's strengths and
needs, then brainstorm to set realistic goals and ways to
achieve them. A team effort in taking stock, setting goals
and working out best strategy practices is not a new, but
today I saw an exceptionally good example of it. It was nice
to be part of the process. I am thankful to a special friend
for inviting me.
Today was "bill paying" day for me. Like so many
other retired folk, much of our income comes in the form of
retirement checks received around the first of each month, so at the
end of the month, I get the checks written and ready. I also review
our spending over the past month. I use Quicken to keep track of our
finances and I am compulsive about it. I keep every receipt in a
special folder until it is entered. Richard, who thinks that much
detail is a waste of time and effort (similar to his relaxed
attitude about folding underwear), humors me by turning in most of
his receipts. He isn't too concerned about money he spends for
hamburgers, coffee or newspapers.
Whether or not every penny is accounted for, the
monthly practice of taking stock, setting goals and planning how to
meet them is important to our financial health. Now, we aren't
talking high finance here. We're talking about looking over our
expenditures to note any problem areas, gathering our bills, making
sure there is enough to pay them all and deciding how to handle any
shortage or excess.
If taking stock is important to education and
finances, it is many times more so to our spiritual health. I have
long made it a habit each night to ask the Lord to review my day
with me, to show me areas I failed in, ways I fell short, where I
went astray in what I did, said or thought. I want Him to show me so
I can repent and so I can ask Him to lead me out of that.... because
I know I am weak and will not be able to live a life pleasing to Him
unless He provides the guidance and strength.
So, every night the Lord and I take stock... but
not last night. I was sitting here playing Gin (a card game) on the
computer with Richard (we each have a computer and play over the
internet even though we're in the same room...totally weird, but
fun) and I fell asleep sitting at the computer, not once, but twice!
Off to bed I went at 8:30! Me, a night owl... I was out like a
light. No time with the Lord... So now, I am up at 4:00 a.m. and
writing yesterday's blog in the present tense... and talking with my
Savior. Taking stock.
Saturday & Sunday, October 29 &
30, 2005
Off the Wall
The phone awakened me early and it took a bit to focus my
mind on the message delivered by the rapidly speaking voice.
In stabbing staccato, our daughter Kim delivered one
piercing bit of bad news after another.
Twelve year old granddaughter Kaylah has an
inoperative brain tumor. She is receiving radiation and chemo. No
other details available at this time.
Her father Ethan was rear-ended by a semi as both
traveled at speeds above 75 mph. Ethan is home from the hospital
now. No other details available at this time.
Her eight year old brother was goofing around on
the pool table and broke his arm... badly. The cast extends the
length of his arm. No other details available at this time.
Her mother (our daughter Crystal) passed out, hit
her head and has a concussion. No other details available at
this time.
More later, we're on our way to church.
Psalm 84 was the evening service. "Better is
one day in your courts than thousands elsewhere..." It was good to
be with our church family this evening, but I almost didn't go. I
had not slept last night. I was spent by mid-afternoon, but I felt
the pull of the Holy Spirit. It was a blessing to be in the house of
the Lord, with the family of God.
It's been a stretching weekend. I didn't make it to
the Ladies Breakfast. In fact, I got little done other than get some
food ready for today's pot luck and finish the Pastor Appreciation
gifts we wanted to give the four pastors who serve at FBC.
We went to Wal-Mart, which is always hard for me. I
see my dear friends there... ex-coworkers I love. I miss them. I
miss my position there. I loved working at Wal-Mart 1697... MY
Wal-Mart! Store Manager Silvio Garbarino is an exceptional leader.
His wonderful people skills include a genuine warmth and love for
people. It was a joy to serve under him.
For a long time after my injury, my picture
continued to hang in the layaway area along with the rest of the
management team. I used to check it each time I went in. Seeing it
there gave me hope of returning and reminded me others felt the same
way... but after a time I quit checking... I became complacent. So
it was a sad, but not unexpected discovery that my picture was gone.
I was off the wall.
My heart was kind of heavy as I left the store.
True, I had already been told I would probably never be able to
return, and maybe never work again anywhere, but there is a finality
about being removed from the wall... I was feeling a bit off the
wall.
All sorts of things came at me this weekend. Things
to drive me up the wall, or off the wall, but one constant
remains... our God is an awesome God! He has called me and set me
here in Galt for a purpose... I came to California because He
ordained it and used Wal-Mart to accomplish it... I stay here at His
bidding and I am full of joy to be here even though I still miss my
old church family in Dothan, AL,
too.
Tomorrow will be a new and blessed day I will enjoy
a bit more after some sleep tonight..
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